It was important to me that I start this blog the week after the first week of the new year. At the end of 2011 I was not in the shape I wanted to be in. I was ~80 lbs. lighter than I had been in 2010, but I struggled with small gains here and there and plateaus and had been discouraged. I had to take a look back and see what factors in my life were holding me back from achieving my goal. Let's just say... there were many things that I had allowed to dictate my life. By November 2011 - I promised myself that over the next few years I would work my hardest to get to a healthy weight and maintain it, unlike all the times in the past that I made this "resolution," I was ready to stick to it, it wasn't a "quick fix" or a "diet" by standard definition... it was an overhaul - my life would never be the same again.
Without delving too much into my past for the first post, I had put on weight after being somewhat physically active in school. I played basketball, was a cheerleader, ran track (short distance), and I had dance. Dance was my getaway, it allowed me to be who I wanted to be, who I thought I was, and who I wanted to become. I was always a little "chunky," I was 140 lbs. my Senior year of high school. I felt FAT. After high school was when the weight gain truly started, many things happened in my life during and after high school that determined the person I would be over the next 10 years; however, the effects those events had on me were my decision. That's right - I chose to go into that downward spiral, allowing my life to get out of control, creating excuses for laziness and my eating habits, and my new-found gaming addiction. This blog is already getting too wordy, so I'll cut to the chase: I had to become a different person, I had to become the person I wanted to be, the person I always have been, but was too scared to be. I had to take control of my life and change EVERYTHING for the better, starting from the inside out. So what am I doing? I am embracing myself, flaws and all - something everyone could stand to do. Even though the song doesn't necessarily reflect the intent of this blog, I do feel it applies. Become the "One that got away," become a better person, right your wrongs. Don't mix the message, this isn't about making exes jealous, become that mystical, mythical, legendary person that shines no matter what. This is about being a person that anyone can look at and say "THAT is a genuinely good person" and never give a reason for anyone to think anything less than just that. You are worth it, we are all worth it and I'd like to leave with a little quote that I feel applies:
"Consider it: every person you have ever met, every person will suffer the loss of his friends and family. All are going to lose everything they love in this world. Why would one want to be anything but kind to them in the meantime?" - Sam Harris
This blog is the documentation of the progress in becoming "the one that got away."
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